Anyway, things are OK. We did Remedies today. It seemed pretty straightforward, but still a lot of information to grapple with. I didn't do flashcards ahead of time, but I also didn't do them during class either. It'll be a good review to do them now-- making it my third time through the material on Remedies. My tactic for Crim seemed to work as a time budgeting method, but for actually learning the stuff, I'm not sure it was better.
I'm pretty tired and felt really burned out yesterday. I was pretty bummed out yesterday, thinking about how I don't have a job, haven't had any positive feedback from firms yet, and generally don't know what I'm doing. But I don't feel like there's anything else I should be doing now, so I guess it'll all work out.
I reread my patriarchal blessing the other day and there was one part that seemed different. Then I realized that it wasn't different, it was just that I had been infusing all this meaning into one phrase. I had totally convinced myself that it said something about being a success in the career of my choice. That's not what it says at all. It says,
You've been blessed with a keen mind and you'll have the opportunity to obtain the degree of education and learning that you so desire. I bless you that your mind may be open, comprehensive of the things that are taught to you, that your memory may retain them for use in whatever field you desire to excel.
That might imply that I will work (as I expect to), but it doesn't say that I WILL excel or that I'll even have a "career." I had been operating under the assumption all this time that this big career lay ahead of me. That's what I get for thinking for myself, I guess.
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